I’ve been listening to a lot of lectures and podcasts lately that center around personality types and psychological motivation. These got me doing some online personality tests then I did a Creative achievement test and a few others (just to be thorough and because I was bored). I learned a bit about myself and have zeroed in on one of the central causes of my unhappiness
This is one of those things that is easier to say than it is to believe. I think we are all so caught up in ourselves that we find it hard to comprehend that no one really cares and that if they do it really does not matter. I know for me this was something that took a while to sink in.
I finished reading “Infinite Jest” by David Foster Wallace a few weeks ago and have been sitting and digesting it for a bit. I know that millions of words have probably been written about this particular book and I’m not going to add much to the conversation there, instead I want to examine how it inspired me in a weird way.
This all can be summed up as this being something I wish I could do, something I wish I was confident enough to do. Right now I know a few people in my life who are taking risks to chase their dreams and I applaud their bravery and wish I had enough courage to follow them.
There comes a time when you have to ask yourself how much you’re willing to give away to feel safe. How much you’re willing to sacrifice to not be offended. How much you’re okay with giving up in order to live a comfortable life.
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